back frm camp!
a life changing one indeed. i'm much more assured that i can totally trust in God fully. i really pin high hopes for this camp as i dont want it to be just another camp, but something that i'll rmb for the rest of my life. God never fails, He spoke to me on the very first day. it really struck me hard that no matter what ministry we are in, we are just a child of God, everyone will be loved equally.
another thing that convicted me is that we might say "i prayed, but i didnt hear from God" or "i prayed, but God didnt speak to me". that's plain excuses. i had said that before as well. as for now, i truly believe that God wont let anyone of us go just like that. and are we pushing the blame to God that we'd done our part by praying, and God is not? just keep on praying till you hear it! giving God the fullest attention and He will defintely bless.. all of us matters to Him!
on day2, ps jeff was praying for all those people who wants to be a CL, tears just flow out. i'm someone who have low self esteem(below avg) and dont dare to take up leadership roles. someone who is super low profile and not wanting to be known. as the leaders were going around praying, i couldnt stop my tears as they sincerely believe that each and everyone out there and that it can be done.. my shepherd, UL, pastors believed that i can do it.. how come me myself can't?! that's one thing that God really changed me from deep within.. He also told me that i will face lots of ups and downs but i need to stand firm. even if i tripped, i need to be strong and stand up once again..

all my camp objectives were met! one of them is to build a closer relationship w my sheep and the girls. as we were sharing the covenant that we made in our cg and ultraman, i teared.. not only teared, literally cry hard. after praying, joyce said "your can go back alr, i want to sleep" which kinda spoil the atmosphere. den after a while, she claimed that we didnt hug her after all the huggings w one another.. HAHA! can see the ultraman tearing and laughing at the same time. wan ting shared some real touching stuffs and we made a pact.. (: it's all because of them that made me know what true friendship love is.. super love this family of God!!
another heart melting scene is that i was freezing in the hall for like 2hrs.. i couldnt take it and went out to have a walk.. i saw jogina and she hugged me in the middle of the corridor to get rid of the coldness. so heartwarming..
and for the last day of the camp, joyce fufilled my little dream.. and i'm touched!! haha..
she rmb what i'd said..
she took the effort of finding her..
she even helped me to ask her..
ahhh, i love you shepherd!!

CG08- WRS CAN BE COMPLETED.