One life, MAX IT!

i failed my phy. and once again, i got F9.. sigh. bio was not as bad, it ain't good either. at least a C for it. one of the "top 10" for it and was arranged to sit infront to be more focus. -_-"
efforts ain't paid off and like wasting my time. study fail, din study oso fail.. no point studying le ba. those din study have better results than me. saddening. they have better brains than me. =/
i keep having situations whereby those things i memorised and did for revision were all being forgotten once i got the paper. dun think i am having those exams/ tests fright. i had been studying for the past 8 yrs and such thing only happened this yr. i dun really know myself now. my mind can't be controlled, drifting to other world.. no idea what i'm doing sometimes.
those concepts can't be "digested" and my brain seemed to reject them frm entering. esp phy and some chem calculations. haven really get to "know" them and keeping them at a distance. sound very much like PHOBIA. =( alright, enough of my grumblings. say so much oso won't help. actions needed! but i just...
i will be the usual val who brings a smile on her face.
=)