One life, MAX IT!

exams going to be over. left with a maths paper tml. flunking chem and phy. hais. i did studied those chemical calculations. but juz can't rmb anything when doing tt paper. damn angry with myself. today, same thing happened. i studied for phy, din really touch on maths. both papers were tough. maths was full of decimals and fractions. "stupid teacher set stupid qns" quote frm fy. regreted not doing tys. lots of qns came frm dere. sad yarh?
no mood to study now.. came back frm chi listening. changed the ans last min and found out tt my previous ans was actually right! and i saw someone's blog.. "heard tt pure chem paper was hard.. i wonder how she will fair.. but today i saw her smile after her paper.." he cared. *touched*
dun really noe what am i doing. study study and study, got nth in the end. i'm going to break down soon. in fact, i'm already broken down. gor gor is sad.. but what is done cannot be undone. i understand how she feels. put urself in her shoes and look at her point of view. can you forgive her if she did all this to you? i won't forgive tt person too. i'm not trying to side her or wad, tts juz wad i feels. whether you want to think over or juz have ur own beliefs is up to you. reality is cruel.
dislike some of my "frens" whom i'm close to in da past. he can't be trusted. began to detest him? and another one.. non-np but interfer with np stuffs. we are in the wrong by telling him all our stuffs previously, but tt doesn't mean he can look for that particular person, saying things that shouldn't be said.. hate it.
i want to stay in my own gang now. dun wish to have anyone coming in and spoiling our frenships. but is our frenship tt fragile..? really tired. problems seemed to have no end. one not being sloved yet another one arises. but not to the extend of stress.. tt was an bad experience.
sometimes, i do have the phobia of listening to np stuffs. going to have meetings on fri and sat. dun noe what will happen during meetings.. praying hard hopes that nothing will happen. this is the most i can do.
i will put things down someday.

]happy bdae to keatying![